I've been battling illness for the last month, so I couldn't be more happy to see the Month of May start! For those I don't see of a regularly basis, I'll spare you the details of my illness.. but for the most part I've been plagued with a NASTY cough. This has affected me greatly, as I have not had my normal routines.. I've slacked off at working out, and I've favored my couch and my bed a lot this month. I woke up this morning feeling better (the cough is still there, but is sounding much better), and I could not help but ask myself, where did April go? It flew by, was filled with birthdays, holidays, sickness, and test preparation at school...
The main problem with my sickly tendencies this month is the fact that I've been completely out of routine, and I feel like I've been flying by the seat of my pants (which normally I do with much more grace). So as I woke up this morning, I've decided April is behind me, and so starts a new month with new possibilities... I soaked in some of the sun, went to church, had time to reflect, and then it hit me... STRESS. May is going to bring out the best of me, end of school year craziness... immediately as I'm sitting in church, my head starts spinning about everything I have to get done in the next month. I go from being in a good mood to fighting back the tears. No matter how much I tried to stop the thoughts in my head, I could not get a hold on it... I was thinking about the 7th grade Derby, our trip to Louisville next weekend, what we are going to wear to our engagement pictures, the kids testing this week.. on top of 4353245 other things.
After leaving church, I'm trying to regroup... I always tease Michael because he always has to know "what's going to happen next?" Whether it's what time we are leaving to go somewhere, or exactly what we are going to do, besides this he typically is very laid back and tends to go with the flow. I typically don't have the answer to his questions, and normally that doesn't bother me... it's one of the things that makes US work. However, in wedding planning and setting dates, it is something I am trying to be more concientious about. We've worked hard to get an idea of when our showers are going to be, when the bachelor and bachelorette party are going to be, etc. So as I sit at lunch, I am still trying to calm down from my near freak out at church... and we realize that one of these weekends is also Double Saints Festival (our annual church festival that Michael and I typically volunteer at, and Michael recently took a committee position for). As I immediately stress out, again Michael is normally laid back and goes with the flow, but I lose it right there at lunch. How can the man that has to know every single detail not write something so important (bachelor party or church festival) in his calendar?!
So I sit here now several hours later, telling myself to take in deep breaths... I've already had my panic attack, I've already cried, and there is nothing else I can do but take one thing at a time, and trust that it's in God's hands. I'm going to get off my butt, and fix what was wrong in April. I will get back to my work out routine, I will get back to writing To Do Lists, and I will conquer the world one day at a time :) And so Life will continue to happen... this time of year it's just going to have to happen with a little bit of stress, and I'll continue to roll with the punches :) (whether I like it or not).
The main problem with my sickly tendencies this month is the fact that I've been completely out of routine, and I feel like I've been flying by the seat of my pants (which normally I do with much more grace). So as I woke up this morning, I've decided April is behind me, and so starts a new month with new possibilities... I soaked in some of the sun, went to church, had time to reflect, and then it hit me... STRESS. May is going to bring out the best of me, end of school year craziness... immediately as I'm sitting in church, my head starts spinning about everything I have to get done in the next month. I go from being in a good mood to fighting back the tears. No matter how much I tried to stop the thoughts in my head, I could not get a hold on it... I was thinking about the 7th grade Derby, our trip to Louisville next weekend, what we are going to wear to our engagement pictures, the kids testing this week.. on top of 4353245 other things.
After leaving church, I'm trying to regroup... I always tease Michael because he always has to know "what's going to happen next?" Whether it's what time we are leaving to go somewhere, or exactly what we are going to do, besides this he typically is very laid back and tends to go with the flow. I typically don't have the answer to his questions, and normally that doesn't bother me... it's one of the things that makes US work. However, in wedding planning and setting dates, it is something I am trying to be more concientious about. We've worked hard to get an idea of when our showers are going to be, when the bachelor and bachelorette party are going to be, etc. So as I sit at lunch, I am still trying to calm down from my near freak out at church... and we realize that one of these weekends is also Double Saints Festival (our annual church festival that Michael and I typically volunteer at, and Michael recently took a committee position for). As I immediately stress out, again Michael is normally laid back and goes with the flow, but I lose it right there at lunch. How can the man that has to know every single detail not write something so important (bachelor party or church festival) in his calendar?!
So I sit here now several hours later, telling myself to take in deep breaths... I've already had my panic attack, I've already cried, and there is nothing else I can do but take one thing at a time, and trust that it's in God's hands. I'm going to get off my butt, and fix what was wrong in April. I will get back to my work out routine, I will get back to writing To Do Lists, and I will conquer the world one day at a time :) And so Life will continue to happen... this time of year it's just going to have to happen with a little bit of stress, and I'll continue to roll with the punches :) (whether I like it or not).
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| Michael and I at Double Saints Festival 2010 |
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